“Change is the essential process of all existence.”

“The glory of creation is in its infinite diversity.”

“And in the ways our differences combine to create meaning and beauty.”  

-Miranda and Spock, ‘Is there no truth in beauty?’


Last Friday, I went out with some friends after work, and in a rare fit of technological willpower, turned my phone on silent and slung it in my bag. So, it wasn’t until I was walking home, idly completing a quick grocery run, that I saw I had missed 6 different messages about Leonard Nimoy’s passing.

That was a week ago. I keep trying to explain why I burst into tears right there in the Tesco parking lot, to justify the continuing deep sense of loss I feel over the death of a man I have never met. I’ve watched the internet overflow with memorials for this extraordinary soul, wanting to contribute my own without being able to find the right words.

I may never have the right words, but these are the best ones I could come up with.


Generation after generation, Star Trek was the show that challenged us to strive for a better humanity, constantly tackling issues of race, religious freedom, different cultures, sexualities, gender identities … yes, these delicate topics were rarely handled perfectly, but Star Trek (almost) always tried. This is, for me, the true Trek phenomenon.

And all of that began with Spock.


“Logic is the beginning of wisdom … not the end.” – Spock, ‘The Undiscovered Country’

When TOS was first piloted, Roddenberry had to lobby against NBC execs to keep Spock’s eyebrows and pointed ears. They were convinced the affect would be viewed as ‘satanic’ on a character who was already cold and logical, and yes, I suppose that the first thing that comes to mind when people think of Vulcans is ‘logic’.

But I will argue until I am blue in the face with anyone who claims that Vulcans are cold. Vulcans are a people who consciously choose, every day of their lives, to control their emotions, and whose traditions, from the Vulcan salute and live long and prosper all the way through the teachings of Surak and the rituals of the High Priestesses, are rooted in the deepest spirituality. Even the IDIC – which, ironically, Roddenberry introduced as a merchandising tactic over intense protest from the actors – grew over time to become the physical symbol of Star Trek‘s most important theme: Infinite Diversity in Infinite Combinations.

And all of that began with Leonard Nimoy.

"The miracle is this - The more we share, the more we have." -Leonard Nimoy

“The miracle is this – The more we share, the more we have.” -Leonard Nimoy

Everyone who ever worked with him — Gene Roddenberry, William Shatner, Mark Lenard, Kirstie Alley…everyone — agrees that Nimoy was the mind and soul behind the identity of not only Spock but the entire Vulcan race. And just look where he took them. Vuclans could have been what many sci-fi aliens are: a window through which we could view the nature of humanity. They were that, of course, but Nimoy made them so much more.

See, Kirk was the swashbuckling, romantic space cowboy, and McCoy was the comically grouchy and somewhat xenophobic voice of skepticism — human characters, plucked straight from our present and placed in a utopic future, just like Uhura, Scotty, Sulu and Chekov. But Vulcans, especially Spock, they represented the type of humanity that Star Trek tells us we could be someday: Non-violent. Logical. Accepting.

There’s no question that Star Trek wouldn’t have been as relatable, as exciting, without Kirk, but without Spock — without their friendship that was so deep it defied death and single-handedly created fanfiction — could there have been such fervent hope for Gene Roddenberry’s vision of our future?

Nimoy once said of Spock that, “In a way, he was more human than anyone else on the ship,” and I’ve wondered whether Kirk’s eulogy in Wrath of Khan could have been inspired by Nimoy sharing this feeling with the writers, or whether they just recognized the complete truth of that statement instinctively.


“Of my friend, I can only say this: Of all the souls I have encountered in my travels, his was the most …. human.” – Kirk, ‘Wrath of Khan’


I wrote Leonard Nimoy a letter back in 1993. I never sent it, mostly because it was embarrassingly honest, and I had a lot of shame at age 9. So it mouldered in disorganized piles of old school papers, drawings, and photos, until our basement flooded and my father swept the water-damaged detritus into boxes for me to sort through.

Now, the thing I keep thinking is I wish I had told Leonard Nimoy how much Vulcans meant to me.

Of course, how many people have surely told him that over the years? What would one extra message from one random woman have accomplished? And yet, I think that Leonard Nimoy was the sort of person who would have cared just as much the 10,000th time he heard that as the first. This is, after all, the man who announced that he would consider himself an honorary grandfather to anyone and everyone who just tweeted him and asked.

So, for what it’s worth, if somehow you know I’m saying this: Leonard Nimoy, thank you for Spock. Of every actor and character from every book, show, and movie that I have ever seen – you and Spock were the ones that showed me the type of human I want to be.


Dear Mr. Nimoy,

My name is Robyn and I live in Alaska. My mom and dad and I watch Star Trek, and we just saw Wrath of Khan. I was really sad and cried when you died, but then my dad told me you come back to life. I didn’t believe him so we watched Search for Spock that same night.

Sometimes I wish I was a Vulcan because you’re always so smart you can figure out the right answer for anybody, even Saavik since she’s not very old and doesn’t know as much yet. And whenever you feel upset you can stop feeling that way before anybody else knows. I wish I could do that, but I wouldn’t want to do the Kohlinar because never having emotions again seems sad. I think that’s why Spock didn’t do it either.

I know you wrote that book about how you don’t want everyone to think that you’re just Spock, and that’s okay, because you’re not just Spock. But I wanted to write to say that I don’t think you have to be Spock, because Spock is you.

Thank you for being in Star Trek.




Being Green (Blooded)

It is almost inconceivable to me that I am a month into this blog, and haven’t posted a Star Trek song yet. Not to imply that Thor isn’t great, but I’ve been a Star Trek fan since I was *3*. One of my earliest memories is of standing in the middle of the kitchen dressed in my Halloween costume (a TNG uniform), and sobbing because I had just learned that Starfleet didn’t exist, so I couldn’t join and hang out with my idols Tasha Yar and Worf. This was far, far more upsetting than Santa, the Easter Bunny and the Tooth Fairy, combined.

So let’s fix this situation.

I wrote and recorded this for some friends a few years ago, but now that I’m looking at it again, it’s making me wish that Muppets in Space had been a Trek cross-over. An epic showdown between Gonzo and Kermit as Kirk and Spock versus Waldorf and Fozzie Bear as Picard and Riker (McCoy would be Statler, caught between the two crews), Swedish Chef as Chekov, Animal as Sulu, and…

Weskey Beaker

Tell me you don’t want to see Wesley Crusher as Beaker. YOU CAN’T.

People. Somebody needs to do this. And if that somebody does not come forth by the time I am finished with Thor: The Frozen World, it might end up being me. In the mean time, here is “Being Green (Blooded),” as sung by T’Pei, Vulcan Ops Lieutenant, lounge singer, and Miss Star Trek Universe winner.

A rare photographic capture of that introspective moment just before one bursts into song in the middle of bridge duty.


Being Green (Blooded)

It’s not that easy being green
Having to spend each day around irrational beings
At times I think it could be rather easier
Being Andorian, Terran, or Trill
Something quite emotional like that

No, it’s not that easy being green
When people think that all you are is a machine
And they view you as uncaring
If you’re not screaming out like angry Klingons in a battle
Or breaking down to cry

But green is the color of reason
And green may be cool and dignified
For green means control of emotion
Applying logic to commotion
And efficiency!

When green is what you’re born to be
It could make you wonder why
But why wonder, why wonder?
I am green and that will be fine – because it’s logical
And I find that quite acceptable

Next Week: Back to Thor next Thursday!